Like I said in a previous post I've made alot of changes within myself, so I'm gonna take a moment to tell yall how I used to be.
The Old Me:
- Unhappy...perpetually unhappy...all the time I was unhappy about something...my money situation, my living situation, my relationship, my family, my job, that there was nothing on tv....anything and everything...not a day went by that I wasn't unhappy about something.
- Pessimistic...if I was having a good day...I knew before I went to bed something was going to happen that would make it a bad day.
- Sneaky...yep, sure was...used to do shit and lie about it (nothing like cheating or anything like that) or just conveniently omit the shit all together.
- Hater....(I hate that term) but yep I was....who did I hate on the most? Myself. Hated the way I looked, I could point out more flaws about myself than anyone else could...I was so self conscious that it (SEVERELY) affected my relationship with my ex. He would give me a compliment and before he could finish his sentence I was telling him how he was wrong.
- I'm happy! Genuinely happy.
- Optimistic....everyday will be a great one...that is my mentality.
- Honest...maybe too honest from time to time lol...but better too honest than not honest at all.
- "Congratulator"...if I see somebody with a cute outfit/hairstyle...whatever...I will let them know...might just make their day *shrugs*
- I love thyself...I remember the day I looked in the mirror and was actually happy with what I saw. February 14, 2009...was preparing to go out to some singles Valentine's day party and just smiled at what I saw...nothing bad to say at all.
Peace n blessings!
4 comments:
i like this post. you were very honest. i see we have a lot of similarties. i sometimes feel the EXACT same way you USED to feel. WHY i do not know. ive definitely been telling myself that i need to focus more on the positives than the negatives, ive been working on it, BUT its not always easy.
and this is why I luvs you, homie.
We as women go threw things like this. The coming out of it is the best part to me. I'm a before/after type chick myself and the before I don't even blink an eye at anymore because she's not me. Not ever again and I'm overjoyed about that.
this is my favorite post! and you still da....ok enough of that bey bey
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