BUT...
My grandmother...is a different story.
She died 4 years ago...the week of Thanksgiving and 4 years later it still hurts sometimes. From time to time I'll look up at the clouds and shed a tear or two because I miss her...I'll walk into her old room and wish she was still sitting there...my son will do something I know she would have loved and I get sad because she didn't get a chance to see him grow up and because he will never know how extraordinary she was first hand...I look at the oblong scar on my left knee from burning the ends of her hair (she had extensions) and a piece of the fake hair dropping on it and I'll smile because it's a memory of her forever embedded in my skin. I've never been one for tears or crying...I suck it up, hold it in and move on, tears solve nothing, just give you a wet face...but I shed my tears for my grandmother because I love and miss her every single day.
Happy 90th birthday Grandma...you're gone but never ever forgotten.
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I really enjoyed this one. I have fond memories of my grammy, too. One day I'll write about it. It's been more than 10 years, but it will always remain in my mind. Bless!
Grandmothers are special and that hurt of the loss always remains.
Just the other day I was watching a documentary about an all Black boarding school and I thought to myself, That was around the time my grandmother would have been in school. I called my mother and mentioned the documentary and she said "That's where your grandmother went to school." Little things like that make me think that they miss us too and send us reminders of themselves.
Grandmothers are so very special...it's been three years since my grandma passed away and sometimes I still feel as though she's not supposed to be gone. I also have moments of getting extremely sad everytime I see a picture of she and I together or find something that has her handwriting on it.
@Ice Grandmas are the mother's we wanted our mother's to be I believe...I know she was 64 years my senior but we had good times...I remember explaining what being gay was to her because we were watching a talk show about gays...she almost fell out of her chair...bless her heart.
@DaBossBitch I like to think she still hangs around...I talk to her all the time, stuff I can't or don't want to tell anybody else, I tell her.
@Starlaa They are! They really really are
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