Guess Whose Bizack

Yuuup, him back. I've been putting off saying anything but...well...fuck it.

The Milkman is back in effect, has been for awhile, well acctually he never really left so saying he's back isn't really a correct statement.

We had issues in the beginning yes, I will admit that but what relationship between two people (especially a man and a woman) doesn't? I think alot of the issues that we had were basically because since we had known each other for so long before attempting the dating phase (a year) that it seemed natural to jump head first into initiating a relationship of sorts...problem with that was, we didn't really know each other, so here are two strangers diving head first into a potential relationship...it just doesn't work like that.

So we had a talk...in depth talk about it and I told him I wasn't ready to be a girlfriend to him or anyone else right now because I had things that I had to make right within myself and my life first because you can't give yourself to someone with the intent of making them happy and vice versa unless you are truly happy on your own first.

It's not what he wanted to hear at the time but he rolled with it...we took a hiatus for a day or two and then picked back up...with the understanding that at this point in time it's not heading towards a relationship...we are just two good friends spending time together. And I (as well as he) are completely okay with that.

We go to the movies, we talk often, we go out to the club and just all around have a good time together without the impending relationship aspect to it. It's nice, I always have a good time with him, he makes me laugh and feel appreciated even with the simplest of things.

Milk is my friend first and foremost and no matter what occurs (given that it's not something completely disrespectful to me) with what we have going on now, he will always remain as such. I love him quite deeply and his friendship is important to me, with that said...will you be seeing more of him on the blog? Nope, you won't. Somethings are better left unsaid and kept private.