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Monday, November 1, 2010

Deadbeat

I just don't understand how people (because it's not just men) can abandon their children.

Sure my son gets on my nerves with some of his antics, the notes home, the occasional back talk, the repeated calling of my name, the continous talking about sonic and mario and other various gaming characters that I don't know...

BUT...

The hugs, the kisses, the moments when he tells me he loves me for no particular reason at all make it more than worthwhile.

I couldn't imagine leaving that behind and living my life as if he didn't exist, seeing this little person that looks like me and has some of the same personal characteristics that I do is like seeing a miracle in front of my eyes every day. Watching him grow and change from day to day, month to month, year to year is AMAZING...how can people turn their backs on that? It's just crazy to me.

Sometimes I doubt myself as a mother because I wasn't patient enough or I put something off or even put something before my son but in the end I know that through all my flaws or mistakes that the fact that I'm doing what I can for the benefit of my son already makes me a good parent.

People I urge you to wait for children until you are ready and when you beome a parent or if you are a parent now, cherish all those moments that you have with your children, time goes by so quickly that if you blink you could miss something spectacular.

6 comments:

Monique said...

Very well said and so true. I love my son and he was the best thing that ever happened me. Who cares that I don't sleep anymore, Ive gained weight, and I never buy clothes. It's all about him and I'm ok with that.

Anonymous said...

Monique I agree. Replace all those him's and he's with she and that's exactly how I feel about my princess who just turned one by the way :)

The Real Mz. Jones said...

awww. There is nothing like being a mother. its like life actually has a purpose. everything i do, every decision i make is based off of my tootz. she is my biggest accomplishment.----> i do need to chill out a bit with going on all of these damn field trips though. her teachers probably think im nutz.

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Epitome said...

@Monique: I can't describe the feeling I get when I look at my son...I've never been "in love" but that feeling I get when I look at him I know is TRUE love.

@Krissy: your little momma is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute! I just wanna pinch her cheeks!

@Ms. Jones: Girl! I will be at the school every damned day if I could! I think being a young black mother we have to show our faces twice as much as our older/non black counterparts just to show these teachers we aren't half stepping

Reggie said...

Well said, excellent advice.

My children get on my nerves, I understand why animals eat their young; and yet, they're a part of me. They wouldn't be the way they were if it weren't for me. I mean, I can't say I'm responsible for all that shit, but a lot of it is me.

I love my two crumbsnatchers.